12/9/11

Getting used to life with out you SUCKS. There is nothing good about you leaving me. I miss you more as each day passes. There will never be another like you for me Petey, the sadness of your loss is so much more then I ever expected or experienced. You were my best friend. Miss you. 4 months come and gone....still no peace in my heart. WHY?! WHY?! God I loved you. 2 years ago today we got a DCM diagnosis. One of the worst moments of my life. Miss you big boy. Please wait for me.

Three months.....

Feeling so lost and all alone
I want to bury all the memories
Leave no trace that you ever existed

Maybe then I could sleep at night
... Maybe then my eyes will be free…
From all the tears

Don’t want to have to drag this pain with me
Everywhere I go …
I want to be normal again

But everywhere I look is a reminder of you
Of us, of everything we shared.
Why can’t I let you go?
Let your spirit rein
Why cant I smile in reminisce

The scar is too deep
And the emptiness makes me cold
I to feel like I have gone…

Into another world

A world where happiness
Is an obstacle
Laughter a challenge
And complete is almost impossible…

If only I could go on without the thought of you…
Maybe then ill feel what peace is like again!

Cashca Viljoen

He is my Dobermann

He tells me everyday I am his reason for being, as he lays his head against me.

His eyes search my soul as he gazes up at me.

His shear presence beside me makes me feel invincible, he is my protector, my confidante.

He is the part of me that can reach the farthermost horizon's.

He is always exuberant, full of forgiveness, willing to please and be my instant clown when I need to laugh.

Without him ...I am just another lonely being on this road of life, he makes me feel so much more.

He has taught me so many things, from patience and perseverance, devotion and unconditional love, peace and inner strength.

There is no love more powerful than this, and nobody less deserving than me.

He is my DOBERMANN

So sad my heart hurts

I'm having a really hard time right now. I miss Petey beyond words. While at work today, I cleaned up my email and found this poem in my save file. I sent it to my work email August 14, 2008. Three years to the exact day that my baby would die. I have no idea why I sent the poem to my work email. I'm guessing there are no accidents. It was meant to be there for me to read today.

When I am gone, Release me, Let me go-
I have so many things to see and do,
You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears,
Be thankful for our beautiful years.

I gave to you my love, You can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness,
I thank you for the love you each have shown,
But now it's time I traveled alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must,
Then let your grief be comforted by trust.
It's only for a time that we must part,
So bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, Call, And I will come.
Though you can't see me or touch me, I'll be near,
And if you listen with your Hearts, you'll hear
All my love around you soft and clear,
And then, when you come this way alone
I'll greet you with a smile and say

"Welcome Home"

Long Road....

We buried our friend on the land near the tipi. We wrapped him in his blankies and laid him to rest with his favorite toys. It was raining buckets which felt very fitting, because everyone was crying.

Rest in Peace my dear friend. I miss you so.



and I wished for so long...
I cannot stay
All the precious moments...
Cannot stay
It's not like wings have fallen...
I cannot say
Without you something is missing...
I cannot say

Holding hands of daughters and sons
In their phase they're falling down
Down, down, down

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you again

We all walk the long road
I cannot stay
There's no need to say goodbye

Oh, the friends and family...
All the memories going round
Round, round round...

I have wished for so long...
How I wished for you today

And the wind keeps rollin'
And the sky keeps turning grey
And the sun is setting
The sun will rise another day

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today

I have wished for so long...
How I wish for you today
Will I walk the long road?
We all walk the long road

8/14/11

My beautiful Prince lost his battle with DCM at 12:55am today. He chose to leave us on the only night that all his boys were under the same roof, the first time in many months. Bobby and I were with him as he passed, and were able to call our kids in right after and we were all together as a family. My heart is broken into a million little pieces, our lives touched by this boy so special that none of us will ever be the same again. We are taking him up to the land to bury him, may he run free forever.

I will miss him....always........

Lake George Vacation 8/6-8/13

A fantastic time had by man and beast. Lots of swimming and playing!

Ramdom last month

Petey's last day at work. 8/5/11 Little did I know when I took this cell picture that my best friend would never go into work again.





Last Petey Day 7/27/11 57 months old

July 9-16th Maine

Petey had an awesome vacation to Maine. He ate lots of seafood, went for walks, swam, laid in the sun and relaxed, what more could a Dobeboy ask for???

Achlllies, Petey's brother

Petey's full Red brother from his liter has died from DCM July 4, 2011. His owner Andrew is devastated.

July 1, 2011

The boys continue to be good buddies. It's been a wonderful time having two despite the crazy added work of monitoring two intact males. They have a nice relationship, and have a lot of fun together each day. I think Monty's laid back personality allows their relationship, if he was a typical Doberboy...it wouldn't have worked out past Monty's puberty. We still hike each day and Petey continues to love and enjoy his life. We are off to Maine in a week, I plan on spending all my time with Petey.

June 19, 2011

Epic Petey moment! For Fathers Day I picked up Lobsters. We were all sitting on the deck, talking while cooking dinner. The box of Lobsters was over by the lobster pot. All of a sudden we realize we hear loud crunching noises coming from the side of the picnic table. I ask mom to look at the dogs and see what they are chewing on. They were sharing....a live lobster! Too funny! Petey loves loves loves lobster. We are going to Maine in a couple of weeks so he will get his fill there for sure!

June 17, 2011

June 14, 2011